Today I get the sense I’m supposed to just sit and listen. No agenda. No questions. No wrestling. No message.
I settle in and take a few deep breaths. I sink into the comfort of His arms. There’s no sound except my heart beat and my breathing.
Me: Good morning, Lord.
God: Thank you for coming this morning. I’m glad you’re here.
Me: It feels really good.
~ then my mind races around like a toddler getting ready for bath time. I reel my thoughts back in and focus on my breathing and spending time with God.~
God: You’re starting to wrestle again.
Me: Yes, sorry.
God: Stop writing.
Me: You mean right now – like quit trying to write this while we talk?
God: No. I want you to stop writing the blog for a bit. You can write today then stop.
Me: What? Why? You’ve led so many to the site to hear your messages. Why stop now?
God: You got them started. They need to seek me out on their own right now. I need them to talk to me directly. Not though you.
Me: I’m feeling a little scolded and confused.
God: You’re not being scolded. Don’t worry. We’ll use that again but not right now. You’ve been joyfully faithful for these past 30 days. That’s what I asked of you. Now I need you to take a break.
Me: I’ll still read and write in my journal, though. Right?
God: Absolutely. but the focus in changing. I have another exciting ministry for you.
Me: It feels strange to not right the post though.
God: The next step is bigger but patience is required now.
Me: Patience feels like inactivity. It feels like no forward progress is happening.
God: Just because you don’t see it, doesn’t mean that things aren’t happening. You’ve come a long way in the past 30 days. However, it’s time to pause. It’ll be a brief pause.
Me: What if I just… (trying to negotiate)
God: Don’t press it.
Me: Ok… I got it. Thank you
God: Now go write.
Well friends…. this is truly not the message I was expecting this morning. I’m not quite sure what to make of it yet.
I appreciate the fact that you have taken time to read these. I hope they sparked some new thoughts and forward progress in your own spiritual journey. They have made a huge impact on me. Writing these have truly taken me out of my comfort zone. Imagine letting all internet read your diary. To be honest, that’s what it feels like.
I am very confident I’ll be back writing periodically but I hope you’ll take the time and develop your relationship with Jesus in your own special way. We’re all on a journey and we need to support each other. Please don’t judge some one who is on a different path than you. But forge your own path and bring others along with you for the journey.
Until we meet again… May the grace of God and the light of Christ shine through you each and every day. Be kind to each other.
Make Today (and every day) Count.