Seek Peace

I had a really hard time again this morning getting settled in. My mind kept wandering in a million places to things that were really of no consequence or importance. After shifting in my seat a bit I finally feel like I’m ready. I use my focus word “Peace” to help get me centered.

Me: Good Morning Lord. I’m ready.

God: You don’t seem ready but ok, your message is Heart.

Me: I feel like that’s the word because I’m holding my pink stone heart. I feel like I’m imposing that word. Let me settle in a bit more, please. (and I repeat my focus word Peace)

God: Ok, so you don’t want “heart” today. How about we use “Peace”?

Me: Are you sure? That feels like it’s the default since it’s my focus word.

God: Peace is the message today. I think it’s an important one. Isn’t Peace what you always wanted?

Me: yes, definitely.

God: Isn’t Peace something you wish for others?

Me: yes, definitely.

Go: Ok then, Seek Peace. That’s the message.

Me: I get the Peace part but “seek peace”?

God: Peace doesn’t just happen. You know that, Marcia. Peace is intentional. Peace is contagious. Haven’t you notice how the world reacts when you’re at peace? Does it just happen? Don’t you all need more peace? Somethings you just need to let go of in order to be at peace.

God: What do you need to do today, Marcia, to find more peace? You liked Hide and Seek as a kid, right? Think of peace as hiding and you have to find ti. IT WILL NOT FIND YOU! Did you hear me? It won’t. It’s intentional and you need to find it. It doesn’t just happen.

Me: (being silly) Here Peacey, Peace…. here Peacey Peace… Like that?

God: Really? First of all.. that’s not how you play Hide and Seek. And secondly, you’re not calling it like your calling your dogs. Seek it out. Find it. Be intentional about it. You need to let go of things you’re holding on to in order to find true lasting peace.

Me: Got it. Seek Peace it is.

God: Ok now go write.

I have to say that since I’ve starting writing this, I have been much more at peace. I’m not caught up in a wave of emotions. (or at least not as much) I still have a lot of work to do on many fronts.

When I write these posts, they’re as much for me as they are for you. I am far from perfect and a work in progress. But I’m not sitting still. I’m seeking peace every day. I strive to be a little better today than I was yesterday. It’s a journey, not a destination.

In the words of my dear mother who left this world far too young… Make Today Count!

You’re Not Ready

This morning’s time with God wasn’t the message I was expecting. It always seems as if I try to predict or forecast it, I’m way off. I’m not sure 100% sure if this message is meant for me or you but I know it applies to me. Here’s how the conversation went this morning:

God: Happy Sunday! I’m glad you’re here.

Me: Happy Sunday, Lord. I’m happy to be in your presence. I’m ready for the message today.

God: You’re not ready

Me: Wait, what? Does that mean I”m not ready to have the message? Or I’m not ready is the message? Or is it that they’re not ready?

God: Learn, Train, Go, Do. You still have a lot to learn and so do they.

Me: Can you show me what I need to learn?

God: You’ll know what you need to learn. You already know what you need to learn.

Me: Do they know what they need to learn?

God: Yes, they will.

Me: Doesn’t “You’re Not Ready” sound harsh? Can we soften that to something like ‘Get Ready”?

God: No. I like “You’re Not Ready.” Some people think they are already there. They think they have arrived at the end of their spiritual journey. None of you have. What was my original message?

Me: Love My People. My People Need you.

God: Ok, so start there. This is only going to work if you don’t become complacent. You all are way too comfortable. I need you to STRETCH!

Me: Can we use Stretch as our word?

God: No, I still like You’re Not Ready. They need to flex AND stretch AND use their faith muscles like an athlete. Now go and tell my people.

Me: Ok, Lord. Got it.

God: See you tomorrow.

Me: Yes you will.

While I feel like I have flexed and used my faith muscle a whole lot more in the past month, I clearly still have a lot to learn. I’m reading my Bible every morning and I’m praying and listening. All great things, don’t get me wrong but I need to figure out what’s still missing.

If you aren’t working your faith muscle and have become complacent, maybe this message was for you today.

Regardless where you are on your faith journey, we can also stand to work out our faith muscle more. I hope you’ll join me.

Are you feeling that gentle nudge? I know I am. Now I just need to figure out what’s next. What am I missing? What are you missing? Are you willing to get ready? I’d love to hear your ideas.

Enjoy Life

Even though it’s Saturday I still got out of bed before I needed to so I could spend time with God and feel his presence. This morning He wasn’t really going to give me a word or a message. When I settled in to spend time with Him, here’s how the conversation went.

God: Take the day off.

Me: No, Lord, they’re counting on me.

God: Ok then tell them to relax.

Me: Relax?

God: Yes, relax and enjoy. There’s your word for today, ENJOY. I want people to be present today, not rushed and hurried. I want them to enjoy life. It’s not meant to be drudgery. It’s meant to be full of joy and laughter. They need to slow down and enjoy the little things. You know, stop and smell the roses kind of thing.

Me: Any suggestions for how to do that?

God: Sure, let go of the petty stuff. Whatever you’re worried about today, does it really matter in the long run? Focus on the positive and find humor in the mundane. Be silly like a child. Loosen up and don’t take yourself so seriously. ENJOY LIFE.

Me: Got any good jokes?

God: Do I have jokes? Well, did you hear the one about the Rabbi, the Priest and the…?

Me: Ha! No need to continue. I got it.

God: They need to smile more and love each other. Loving one another means you also have to be loveable and approachable. It’s hard to hug a porcupine.

Me: So Enjoy… seems easy.

God: It should be. But is it?

Me: I suppose not. I really do enjoy these times with you.

God: I do too. You need to enjoy today too, Marcia.

Me: Yes, Sir, I will.

God: Great! Now go Make Today Count.

So there you have it. Today’s message is Enjoy. Seems easy enough but I know I tend to over complicate things, take things too seriously, worry too much and so on.

I tend to live in the regrets of the past. You know what I’m talking about because you do too. I worry about tomorrow and the next day and now Christmas season is upon us. Apparently we skip right over Thanksgiving now.

So I ask myself – what can I do to relax and enjoy instead of rush and fuss? Today isn’t overly scheduled for me. I guess that’s the beauty of having grown kids versus little ones in house. I think I’m going to read a bit of a book I’ve started and probably take the dogs to the dog park. It’s cold outside but nothing that a coat won’t solve.

I hope you’re able to find some peace and humor today. Be silly… crack some jokes.. make silly faces at your kids. Loosen up and have fun today.

Make Today Count!


I overslept a bit this morning and I had trouble settling in to talk with God this morning. I felt rushed and had to take several minutes to really calm my brain down enough to speak with God and hear his voice this morning.

I start by thanking him for choosing me to spend time with him and deliver his message. I ask for his protection.

He tells me to stop talking. I calm my brain and take a deep breath

Me: May I have the message?

God: Are you ready?

Me: Yes

God: Are you really ready? You still don’t seem ready. The word today is EMBOLDEN.

Me: Embolden? Uh what does that mean? Seems unusual

God: It means to be bold, silly. Have courage.

Me: Ok, help me unpack that.

God: My people need to have courage to stand up for what is right. Don’t let the bastard win. We’ve already claimed the victory.

We have some banter as I thank him again and I think we’re done. He tells me to stay focused, centered, and calm. Just keep going.

Me: What else would you like me to tell them?

God: Tell them I love them…

Me: What else? You said something else in there that I missed.

God: Tell them I love them and that I miss them. Oh and that I’m proud of them but I miss them.

Me: Ok got it.

God: One more thing, evil counts on us being weak and plays on fear. Be Bold and guard your heart.

So there you have it. I know these writings are a bit unusual and hard to wrap our collective brain around. Some who read this may think I’ve lost my mind. Possible. Some might think I’m a religious nut. Possible. Here’s what I can tell you… I’ve been reading my Bible for the past 19 days. Not just reading the words on the page but absorbing them this time. I’ve been writing in my journal for 14 days and writing on here for 5 days. This experience and process is too good to keep to myself. It’s a scary journey but I’m finally at a point in my life where I’m committed to being bold. I’m committed to sharing. I’m committed to helping. I’m committed to loving. That is what has brought me a new kind of peace.

Back to the message… Embolden…. embrace that word today. Let is sit there and take root. Let it grow within. Where do you need to be bold? Where do you need courage? You got this.


My morning time with God wasn’t what I was expecting but it never is. I can’t predict what He wants to talk about. He says “My.People.Need.You.”

Me: Really? That’s the message today?

Him: Yes. My people need you.

Me: Can you help me unpack that?

Him: Mobilize. Help others.

Me: Do they know how?

Him: Yes, they do. They need to get off the couch and help others.

Me: Will they know who?

Him: Yes, they already know. They just need to act.

Me: Mobilize?

Him: Yes, Mobilize. It means to move with a purpose.

Me: So that’s it?

Him: Yes. Why don’t you like it?

Me: It’s not that. I’m trying to wrap my brain around it.

Him: All they need to do is HELP SOMEBODY and it should be today. You guys are answering prayers. Don’t you see that? Be my angels. Be my hands and feet. Now Mobilize.

Me: Wow. Ok. I get it now (sigh)

It’s never the message I expect. I question it to make sure and it becomes an interesting banter and conversation.

Your answer to this request may be small. Helping someone who is going through a medical issue. It could be helping a neighbor get their home ready for winter. Open your eyes and heart to what God is calling you to do.

There are many many organizations you can get involved with that speak to your heart. Maybe it’s working with kids, working with animals, working with elderly, working with your neighbors. The need is great out there. Step out of your comfort zone and find your passion.

He says Mobilize. How are you answering His call today?

I do listen.

As I settled more into this routine of morning reading and prayer it gets easier to connect quicker and start my conversation with God.

Today’s message is simple. He said “Tell them I do listen. I hear their cry’s in the dark. Come closer to me so I can give you comfort.”

One of this mornings readings was Psalm 13. David seems to always start with being angry with God and seems like he’s literally screaming at him sometimes. What I noticed in verses 5-6 was David says “I’ve thrown myself headlong into your arms. I’m celebrating your rescue. I’m singing at the top of my lungs. I’m so full of answered prayers.”

I’m not saying it’s easy to do this. It sounds simple yet is sooo hard to do in reality.

As I continued my conversation with God, he repeated “I do listen. But they have to open their own ears to hear my response. Quiet their mind and hope their hearts. Accept these trials and know I will turn their pain into prosper. Lean into me, not into the world.”

I questioned the word “prosper”. He said “yes, prosper”. okey dokey, prosper it is then.

I can’t tell you how vulnerable it is to write this but it’s ok if you think I’m a bit crazy. It’s ok if you think I’m off my rocker. It’s ok if you think that God doesn’t talk directly to us. The messages I’m relaying to you are still valid and they do apply to each of us.

I didn’t wake up a few weeks ago and say “hey, it would be cool to talk to God.” I’ve been praying and meditating for many years. I don’t know what’s different this time. Maybe I do know. I’ve gotten the courage to acknowledge it and share it this time. AND … I’ve decided to not keep it to myself. This journey is so powerful I can’t keep under a basket.

He listens! Are you?

You are loved

I started this writing journey on October 18th. The daily conversations with God have been nothing short of amazing. I spent 10-15 minutes sitting with God and listen to his voice. Fortunately he only gives me what I need in small bites. As we go through this journey together I’ll share the initial process with you but the message he shared with me this morning is more important

The message God gave me this morning is – “You are loved, wanted and important. Stretch your comfort zone today and reach out to mend old broken fences. I want to spend time with you. Get to know me.”

What does that mean for you? Maybe you need to call a family member. Maybe you write a letter. Maybe you need to have dinner with an old friend.

Everyone is going through something. Show the people around you some grace and understanding. Put old grudges to bed. Is what you’re upset about worth that energy? Some things you just need to let it go. (don’t break out into song but it’s valid)

God wants to spend time with you. Make some time in your schedule and just listen. It takes practice but gets easier. He misses you.

Take a deep breath today as life’s challenges bombard you. Know that you are loved, wanted and important.

My First Blog Post

Start of the journey

Be yourself; Everyone else is already taken.

— Oscar Wilde.

This is the first post on my new blog. I’m just getting this new blog going, so stay tuned for more. Subscribe below to get notified when I post new updates.

A few weeks ago I decided to get back into reading my Bible. I started a Bible in a year plan. I’ve done this in the past but this time felt different. This time it was less checking a box and more absorbing the amazing things God wanted to tell me.

After reading, I spend 10 minutes with my eyes closed and sit in the presence of God and truly listen to what he has to share with me. I started to write it down because it was so much flooding at me that I couldn’t keep it all in my brain. Since my journaling started before this blog, I’ll be weaving some of that in and bringing you into this conversation. Stay tuned. This is all a work in progress and I hope you find a benefit from joining me on this journey.

Who is Marcia?

I am a Christian, a survivor, a mom, a dog mom, a wife, an active community volunteer. I am not perfect. I have flaws and rough edges.

The purpose of this blog is to help me get thoughts out of my head and onto paper (so to speak). I’ll be giving you a glimpse into the daily conversations I have with God. Some of this may not make sense but bear with me. Take what pieces you need. Pass along the pieces others will benefit from.

As we head down this journey together, I’ll share my story about my faith and how it’s had it’s highs and lows. It’s not a straight line and many of you have been a critical part of that journey.

I mentioned I’m a survivor. I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer in June 2016. Nothing sends your world into a tail spin like that. There’s a lot to unpack on that topic which I’ll save for another day.

I’m a mom to two amazing children, Zack and Meredith. They are truly the light of my life and I couldn’t be prouder of them. You’ll hear more about each of them as this all evolves as well. I’ve always said I should have written down all of their antics because sometimes you just can’t make that stuff up.

I’m a dog mom. I have two dogs – Tucker and Scooby. I adopted Scooby this past April. He’s special needs and is such a character. He was born with lesions on his brain that impacted his vision and his mobility. He’s a bit clumsy and runs like Scooby Doo so hence the name Scooby.

I’m a wife. I got married to an amazing man this past New Years Eve. He came into my life at just the right time and stood beside me through the whole cancer journey. I gave him the “out” if he wasn’t up for it and he stuck with me. Lot’s to unpack on that topic too.

I’m a community volunteer. I’m not as active right now. A lot of my involvement feel by the wayside when I was going through treatment. It’s time to pick that back up which has led me to writing this blog.

Stay tuned for how this all plays out and I hope you’ll join me on this journey we call life.